Off the wagon

OK, so, yeah...I went to the doctor today for my blood work results, and let's just say I have a lot of work ahead of me. I knew I had gained weight. I figured my cholesterol would be up. But up 100 points? Yikes.

It's the anniversary of my diagnosis. Feb. 3, 2006: the day I was diagnosed with diabetes. Talk about a shock. I went through all the emotions (denial, anger, etc.) and then I got over myself and went to work. Down went my weight, my cholesterol and my blood pressure. I became quite a loser. My A1c went from 7.1 to 6.1. Now, it's back up to 6.8. The ADA recommends an A1c of below 6.5. So, yes, I'm elevated.

When you're doing well, you only have to go in every six months. The doctor wants to see me in three months. So I have until mid-May to get my act together.

This may be the wake-up call I need. Depression...fear...maybe I can get them to work in my favor.

Random Thoughts: Feb. 3

• 06:59 Ow. Neck pain. Bad. #
• 08:25 The kids’ schools just announced early dismissal. #
• 09:23 Wondering if - and how - my ex is gonna "punish" me for filing for an annulment. #
• 11:31 It’s finally snowing. Good. I’d hate to think that the schools are closing early for no reason. #
• 13:39 It’s hard to take the high road and be silent when what you really want to say is, “What goes around comes around, baby!” #
• 14:57 Spent my entire break talking to a coworker in MN re: a billing error. I want my 15 minutes back. #
• 15:41 5:00 dr. appt. still on. Need to take 15 min. unpaid early dismissal in an attempt to get there in time. #
• 15:41 Unplanned pickup of the kids also necessary, since my fiancé is staying off the roads. Grrrr. #
• 19:56 I leave the doctor's office after hearing my cholesterol is up 100 points, and the first thing I do is go out to dinner. Denial! #

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